Living self-righteously

It never occurred to me that even when I was feeling at an all time low that I was still living and thinking self-righteously.

I had told myself that I can't forgive myself, that I can't believe I did it but these are all statements of reverse pride that says that MY standards are higher than God's and trying to be my own saviour (*shocking!) Bearing my own punishment, pay penance by wallowing in guilt or trying to be good (fail) or trying to add to God's favor through obedience(not very successful). Zilch. Means nothing at all because clearly this is just a grief that comes from failing to live up to my own self-inflated opinion. The cross undermines our own self-righteous, if we had any righteousness of our own, God wouldn't need to send a savior. No human can make any amends, payment, penance, what ever.

Humility and acceptance of the Great Rescue which we have zero contribution except to confess our sins wrongdoings, accept Him for His forgiveness who "blots out our transgressions' and 'remembers our sins no more"(Isaiah 43:25).

Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

We need Him and I must never forget that again, to rely on self and own way of thinking is the path to destruction and disobedience.